VEGGIES !!

I love you.
You are me heroes.

Unrespectable.

I have the best friends! OMG I love you all soo much! I've noticed how great you are, cause I know i can tell you anything and I can trust you to keep the secret, I can rely on you all to always be there for me and have my back which is great. I always have fun with you all, make me smile and laugh. Eventhough sometimes I can be very annoying and not seem like the nicest of people, you gotta know you can also tell me anything, I'll keep your secrets if you keep mine, I'll stand up for you and you can depend on my trust, honestly I can actually be decent some times :P

Earlier i felt all crappy (Blog below), okay sure I still have the same problems but Ryan, Lew and Dale rang asking me to come out so Yay. Get out of the house like :). I'm glad you asked me to come out, it really has cheered me up, had fun eventhough we hardly did anything lol. Anyway point is guys you rule and I really don't know what I'd do without you all 'cause you're all so nice to meeeeee !!

I love you !!

Hmphh.

Yano, I'm sick of me. I want one thing then I want another, don't want it no more, no.. wait... changed my mind.. I do want it.
What is wrong with me? It's soooo annoying! Thought I was finally happy with something I had..
And then you pointed something out to me and POOF, I'm totally unsure.
And it's not as if I don't want it .. I do! I'm happy at times, but then I think about it .. and I'm like.. Damn :/
And it sucks 'cause what you pointed out to me is true, and I've never notied it before.. How could I not notice it before?
I don't know what to do.. I hate being in this situation. Because right now I'm deffinatly liking the sound of all sides.

Good morning.

Yano what? I've been so damn happy today. might not have looked like i was but hell, I was! Repeating inmy head "3 more hours t'ill the weekend, 2 more hours t'ill the weekend, 1 more hour, 20 mins" and so on. And when I got on that bus back home, sun shining brightening up Wales (For once!) my new summer song blasting in my ears ( Learn to fly - Foo fighters.. And yeah I know it's not Summer but it's more like summer than it was!) I sat thre for half an hour with a smile on my face.
Seriously.
Man I was freakin' happy :O . And I'm still in a great mood.. Not as good as on the bus because the sun and blue sky combo is like a drug for meeeee.. makes me hiiiiiiighhhhhhhh. Anyway I'm happy and I thought maybe I should share it with you. From my blogs it may seem like I have alot to complain about but do I really have anything THAT bad to complain and moan about? I'm one lucky person in my own opinion, I have a great family, sure the parents have split but they still love me, I have the most AMAZING friends you could ever ask for.. And alot of them for that matter lol, I have food, money ... The things most take for granted. Yeaaaaaahh I can have ups and downs but at the end of the day I'm lucky. Plus I'm still young! I may not think I do.. but I have freedom, sometimes it might feel like I don't because I might have restrictions on things my friends do.. I can't. But hey! I'm out with them most days anyway, alot stay in doing work . mMaybe I should knuckle down.. but not yet.. of course when it's crutial I will.. But from now on I'm gonna try and enjoy everything.. If i don't.. Gimme a slaaap. :)

Oh and the title "Good morning" -- as in new start, change, bringing light onto me to realise how lucky I am..

I'VE SEEN THE LIGHT! (Lol)

Straight to the damn point.

IFFFFFFFFFF you ain't got NO money.. then... Take yo' broke ass home ;)

Alot of different stuff in one.. Boredom basicly.

:(
I had ideas in my head for a song, came to write it down and.. POOF. Gone. :/
Man I'm soo bored (as you can probably tell because I've written 3 blogs today!).
Been kickboxing, it was cool :).

I really want to be in a band! And I soooo want to be able to play my guitaarr it would be awesome. I could just lay there, playing some random tune, singing some random lyrics.. Ever noticed that when you sing random lyrics it always sounds so much better than when you go to write them on paper.. Why is that? :S
Anyway, no one has read my blogs today which is a shame I like having comments :L, though theres not actually much to comment on this or anything..
Priyas Birthiday tomorrow ! Happy birthday Priiii :D we're all up her house so it should be a right laugh :D
I'm hungry...
How do people start these bands anyway ? Do they just one day thinkg "Hm, Ima start a band" and have auditions? I've never been offerd an audition :( lol.

FRIG i am boooooored.

Anyway so one day I will totally try and write lyrics :/ but for now I suck and can't think of anything.
Fancy knowing what song I'm listening to? Hands held high - Linking park .. Great song, not one of their kinda upbeat scream-y kinda ones, quite mellow... I do really like the lyrics thouh, great songg as I said, maybe not your type? Listen anyway :)
" I'ts funny it's times like these we pray, but the bomb blew the moque up yesterday" Yupp. I love that line.
True stuff.
That's another thing, I totally don't agree with the army, why don't they just stop having an army in every country then there'd be no wars, what are the point in wars anyway ? ALl it does is kill a few people, cost alot of money and make a mess. Tell me someone who has really gotten that much out of a war? We always talk abput world peace but where is this peace?! Right now, us and America are out in Iraq (i think? I don't pay attention to the army) fighting, killing innocent people, getting killed themself.. and for what? Okay yes, terrorism.. But how would we like it if some random army from some random country cam here and started ruling and partolling the streets..
Man I could go on, But I aint gonna. Oh yeah and.. not hungry no more.. got toast XD COuld still eat a horse though..
Another thing that bugs me.. Dreaming. Not like go to sleep dreaming but like your dreams, your biggest desire. It's just cruel because how often does your dream come true? Not very I'm guessing, it's just cruel cause people have these visions of them doing want they wanna do and all.. but then you grow up.. And.. Nothing. So I'm so gonna be gutted when I'm older because how often do people become succeful singers or bands? Not too often really. Buut, I'm not saying give up, if you have a dream try your hardest to hold on to this 'cause if one day you let go.. but the opportunity comes where thos dream could come true.. It's too late because you've already given up and you just don't realise anymore.

Oh plus. Song with crappy lyrics should not become songs.. Even though I listen to lots of song with crappy lyrics. :)

I realised today how beatiful the sky was, night sky.. Not only the night sky though, the moon it was pretty perfect. Not a full moon and bright white no. But it was quite small but with a hint of pink, i though Wow that's quite beautiful.. ha this is cheesey hey! Then I kinda compared the moon to us. The moon is out all the time even if we can't see it, it's there, weather it's the roughest of weathers, coldest, warmest, dryest it's there and you can always depend on it to be there. But with us when worst comes to worst we shy away, drown ourself in our sorrows, put ourselfs even further down, but bad always becomes goos at some point, things can only get better so why do we hide away in our missery? If we were like the moon we'd always be there, dependable, nothing could stop us from doing what we're doing, nothing will stop us from doing what we want to do. And then everybody becomes happier and way more determined to reach their goal.
I'm thinking .. blog over :) pretty long blog.. Thanks for reading :)

Be Yourself.

Haha shortly after the blog I just wrote.
Howcome everyone has to be a label these days? Why can't everybody just be themselfs? I don't see the deal with these emos, chavs, scenes, goth or whatever it's like they don't really have their own identity.
It's not like you can label everyone anyway! Like me for instance (i think it's pretty impossible to label me anyway lol). It's not natural to be one of these labels really, unless you're actually being yourself when others around you label but you don't see yourself as a label. You aren't born chocolate, plastic or skater (and the rest) so howcome everybody is so worked up on being "someone".

Plus, what's the deal with chavs and emo's being enemys? It's not that they don't like the actual people they just don't like the label. And judging someone as what they're labeled as is pretty stupid. You can't know a person from what they're labeled.

Everyone is different, so why don't we start showing it? It's not hard. Seems like most people these days are just hiding behinde these masks being.. well.. fake I guess.

Ergh.

I hate school. Really do. I'd be sooo happy if I didn't have to go anymore, or there was a waaaay better schooling/teaching system.
I can't wait 'till next year, waaay excited! More freedom. It will be great.
I'm thinking I might not do my dance exam in school in 2009 :/ it's not that I don't want to I just have no idea what I'm doing or anything and I really don't like the dances so it's kinda a shame.
Ah well.
I'll fail with flying colours.

So Emma, how was school?

School was crap (isn't it always), what a stupid question.

Anyway, today in school i found out that I'm kinda/practicly the only person outta the whole group of people in school that i bother with, that believes in marriage! I was schocked! And by the way, the reason for me writing this blog is not so I can convince you marriage is something to believe in and that you'll go to hell if you don't get married (don't believe in hell anyway like!) I just thought I'd kinda share my day and how kinda shocked I was, yano!

Their reasons for not getting married/not believing :

• It's just a signed piece of paper and a ring
• It's no different than not being married except when you break up they have to have half of your things (some other stuff :/) and the paper and ring again.
• You'll have to wake up to the same face everyday
• You'll have to have sex with the same person te rest of your life (if you don't get divorced) oh and plus.. lol.
• Can't cheat (well duh lol)

My reasons why I think marriage is beatiful (: :

• Shows that you're in love (of you're getting married for the right reasons)
• Shows that you only want to be with that one person for the rest of your life
• Shows commitment and faithfull-ness lol.
• You get to wake up to the face of the person you have fallen so deeply in love with that you just don't want to leave their side
• Start a new life and family with this person
• Sex (Y) lol ?! (stupid reason)

I cant think of more lol, but yeah basicly I think marriage is a beatiful way to show your love for someone and to be honest I can't flippin' wait 'till I'm in love, I might be now.. who knows maybe I'm "too young" (read blog below lol)

Some more about school :

Year 11 sucks, it's not hard I guess it's just the same as last year, but more work. I hate it. Seriously can't stand it but I have to because of damn GCSE's. I've totally made my mind up of what I'm going to say.. and sorry about this, I'm gonna sound chavy.. but.. I'M WELL CHUFFED. I had nooo idea what I was doing before, now i feel like ive kinda found the missing piece to my puzzle (or just finally putting it there cause maybe that night that I was doing the puzzle I got bored and started watching Scrubs instead? .. maybe..). I still don't know what I want as a job, but I'm now soo excited for next year now that I've decided what I'm doing. Wanna know? Tough I'm saying anyway! 6th form - Art, psychology (and something else probably!) and that college at night (well after school) studying preforming arts! AHHH I can't wait. But this year is soooo gonna drag now !

So what happened in school today? :

Crap all.

Wondering..

As seen as loads of people ask (not ask me personally, just.. ask in general) Is it possible to be in love when you're young?
Well, I don't see why not because does age really make a difference on how you feel?
But as the adults always say (because don't they just know it all -_-) "You don't know what love is, you're only *age* ".. And? Just because I'm/you're/we're younger does it really mean we need so much more experience in life just to know what love is? Maybe the person who said that we're too young hasn't even experienced real love for anyone.
Ah well
Will we ever know?
Aslong as we'e happy I guess hey? :)

What will my future lead to?

So I'm at the age where I need to be making important descisions, GCSE's coming up, sixth form soon, part-time job maybe and hopefully University!
But what do I want to do when I leave school? If I'm honest I have no idea. Which sucks! I would love to do something in art, but my Dad said theres not much pay, so that went down the drain. I was thinking of becoming a doctor because it would be sooo heroic to save lives everyday, but I just can't do science as well as I would like. Maybe a Counciler ? But wouldn't that be soo boring. I would also love to work with animals, but seeing animals in pain most of my working days.. I just couldn't handle it. So I'm pretty stuck. What the hell do I do after leaving sixth form lol?!
I know what I really want to do though...My dream I guess! But it's prettyt hard to get in to, adn even if i do manage it might not be as good pay. My dream career is singing. I know so many teens can say that and all the "I just want to be famous and marry Brad Pitt" crap, but i really have no other career interest. I'm not the best singer.. but I've heard worse lol (without chuffing!).
But really.. I have to make a different choice and be unhappy with my career chouce for the rest of my life.
Any advice? No? Hmph...

Our cruel vanity.

Okay, obviously there are good and bad points to everything.. and maybe you totally won't agree with me but everyone is intitled to their opinion right ?

What's my opinion on animal testing? Personally I think it's totally barbaric! Hopefully you will take my opinion into mind and read on of why I think this .. :/

So why do we test on animals? Because they offer? They let us ?.. I mean they obviously wouln't mind being tortured right ? After all they are only animals.. Animals that can't answer back, can't say "no!", can't refuse, basicly they're the perfect targets for us.. when I say "us" I mean the scientists and people who agree to this. Imagine being in the situation, needles and all sorts being injected in to your once healthy bloodstream, creams and chemicals that burn through layers and layers of skin, rough ropes forcing you to a cold blood stained table, unable to ask what's going on , o'r stop these monsterous giants from taking your innocent life in a slow and painful way. Torture sucks right?

It isn't so nice when you really think about it is it ?

What did these animals do to deserve this ? Not have the power of speech to get out of the situation? Not having the same rights as us ?Innocent animals die because of our greedyness. And us.. also being animals.. would we like it if we were treated like this ?

Maybe you're thinking "What an idiot, what else are we supposed to test on?" Okay sure that's right, but we're at a point in life where we haven't been this intelligent before (well we have the machines anyway) I'm sure theres something the scientists could create instead of testing on these poor animals.

50 to a 100 million animals are tested on anually (and im guessing they all die.)
If it were 50 to 100 million people.. there'd be havock! No one would find this right would they!
But animals dont feel like us.. they don't have nerves.. they aren't mamals JUST LIKE US! We're the same! We're the exact same species (kinda!)but .. whatever.
And why do we do this? For make-up and medicines.
Sure okay i can see what's okay about the medicines even though i STILL don't agree with this.

BUT the most popular one is make-up. We're so vain that we have to kill to look good?
Cruel Vanity.

There are shops such as The Body Shop that don't test any of their products on animals..
If they can manage how can't the rest?

If you search animal testing pics on the net, no doubt you'll cringe!
To finish I would just like to thank you on reading my blog even if you disagree..
and if I've managed to change anyones mind at allllllll I'm a happy person!
All of this just because of our cruel vanity.
Which kinda needs to stop.

Is it wrong ? :S

To totally change the subject of what I'm about to write about.. WTF ! I don't get this website!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Right, out of my system.
Um.. eventhough the title says "Animal Cruelty" its not just all about animal cruelty.. I was just confused and thought that was the title of the blog not the whole thing haha! And I don't know how to change it ! So I guess we'll all have to live with it for now :)

Anyway.. back to what this blog is about.
It's September the 11th today and everybody knows the date. The Twin Tower disaster happened with houndreds of people dying (I think.. I was young) in 2001 (as my brother said.. as I said before, I was young!). Every year since then we've paid our respect to the happening and had a minuite silence in school.

But today we didn't, It's not like i noticed cause yano.. it's school you get distracted easily (well I do lol). But then I noticed as I cam back home that we didn't do nothing which is pretty selfish?.. Ain't it ? :S
It's not like we can forget it, it's a big deal like! And in the past we've been paying respect so why not this year?
Is it wrong that we didn't ?
Is it juist in the past and that's where it's staying ?
So many innocent lives gone.. so is it okay to just leave it out for this year?

I don't know see.
I really don't think i'ts right, but then again we can't pay respect to these people forever.. we don't exactly have a minuite silence for the people who died in World War 1 and World War 2 these days.

It was in a different country I guess but it still can't be forgotten.

But oh well if that's the way you wanna go so be it, hey ?